Wonderful Time My Ass

As it stands…it’s Christmas day.

Tho I should be smiling and laughing, and being with my family and unwrapping gifts, I sit at the computer typing this. Why? Ever since I was 14…the holidays that mark the end of the year, Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas, have never been the same. And it seems the more and more the years roll on, the more doll the holidays get. I cant even go to sleep the night before with excitement in my heart. If anything…I’m more excited about leave and starting my life.

And that brings me to my mood.

I woke up hearing my talking to her mother about, pretty much everything that’s going on. And one thing that came up…me. How I’m a failure here and wont amount to anything if I stay with mom. And it’s like…wow…I cant believe that’s how I woke up and started my X-Mas morning. But, what was worse was how my mother started to act as if I didn’t hear anything she said…so…it’s heartbreaking to know my mother feels that way, and she doesn’t have faith in when I finally get to TN.

So…now I have something to prove to not only myself…but my mom. To show her that I’m not a failure, that I CAN make it in this world and that I will get my Doctorial and become a surgeon.

So…that’s my thoughts when it came to this ‘wonderful time of the year.’

God, I hope next year is better then this one.

Emotions And Destruction

Anger, such a finicky little thing. The opposite of one being happy, or perhaps anger is an emotion all to itself. There is no way to explain why or how someone can turn from being happy and care-free to angry and bitter. I mean sure, you can look it up in the medical books and get a medically exclaimed reason as to one why would have such high and lows so quickly…but, lets take that out of the picture and just look at the anger itself.

No one really looks at how much such a simple emotion can destroy, and not just physically, but emotionally. What adds on to anger? Stress perhaps, maybe even jealousy or envy; such deadly sins getting in the way of one being happy and content.

But when the anger is directed at you, you tend to get angry yourself; especially if there was no need for the anger in the first place. So I learned to override the anger. Your mind, in a since, can not “feel” two different extreme emotions at once. When you’re happy, everything inside of your mind and body is just…bubbly. You’re care-free, willing to smile at anything simple because you feel good. And when you’re angry, you tend to take it out on everyone around you, for the simple reason of…you’re mad, everyone else can’t be happy, so…you want to make them mad. Hmmm, it seems selfishness came into the mix.

But what if, when one gets angry, they simply close their eyes, take a moment to inhale, let it out slowly, than continue with whatever it was they were doing. Not so much ignoring the anger, but not letting it consume you and what you do. And once you move away from the anger, you no longer feel it thrashing in your mind; instead you’re fine. And this is the perfect time to confront the issue of why you became angry.

When you’re little, your mother doesn’t sit you down and explain how finicky emotions will be when you’re older. And there really is no rule book as to how to manage one’s emotions; it’s something one must figure out for them selves. The best example that I can come up that almost explains how I feel right now is:

Your mother just made a delicious pizza for you and your sibling. You obviously want more of the pizza. So, your mother hands you the knife and tells you that you can cut the pizza anyway you want, as long as it’s divided between you and your sibling. So, you cut it into four pieces, two of them rather small, and before you grab the larger pieces and run off, your mother looks at your sibling and tells them they get to choose which two they want. And if you noticed…greed came into the mix as well. Well, you start to get angry because you know that in spite your sibling is going to take the two bigger pieces leaving you with the smaller ones. So, you pick up the pizza and throw it to the ground and walk away. Little did you know, your sibling was going to give you one big and one small…to make it fair. So, not only did you ruin the pizza, but you hurt your sibling and caused your mother to get angry as well.

I feel like the sibling.
They didn’t deserve the anger, and didn’t deserve the actions that followed.

Anger…such a finicky little thing.

"Wants" and "Needs"

A thought came into my mind…

Is there really a thin line between what you “want” and what you “need” in life?
Should you obviously go towards what you “need” before the “wants?”
But what if the “need” is what you “want?”
Should you still go towards the “need” first?
Or does it really matter?

Confused?

You hear people tell you that no matter what life throws at you, you should decide what is something you “need” to do…or “need” to have before you place the “wants” into consideration.

For example…You have only 10 dollars. You know you “need” to have a gallon of milk for breakfast for your kids…and cereal. You should save the other 4 dollars you have left over for something important like let’s say gas to get you to work to make more money. But standing in the line, you realize you haven’t had bacon in a long time. So…do you take the few dollars you have and get the bacon or do you save it?

Any person is going to probably save it, and buy bacon on a later date. But…was it not the whole reason you going to the store were to get breakfast for your kids? Is bacon not a breakfast food? Was the 4 dollars only going to be saved for…emergencies?

Let’s make this more complex.

You have before you…two paths. Down path (A) you have everything that you “need” in life to become successful; a good paying job, a house, a nice vehicle, food and clothes. Down path (B) you have everything you ever wanted; a family, a yacht, vacations every summer, a winter house down in Florida, and biggest entertainment set up on the market.

When any logical person looks at this, they will tell you, you need to go down path (A) before you can even think about path (B). But…what if in someone’s mind…being successful is having a family and a nice job…that’s it? What if being successful meant being able to take a vacation every summer?

I think I came to the conclusion that your “wants” are not just based off of materialistic things. After all, you could "want" someone in your life and that said person would be someone you "need" as well to brighten your day, make you smile, or to simply be able to pick you off your butt and give you that smile to help you continue. Sometimes your “wants” intertwine with what you “needs” and when they do I think it then comes down to how you handle your situation, and how you balance everything out.

Balance. Such a major role in life that I don’t think people look closely at. Everything is stuck on asking God for help…or some higher being. Why cant people take THEIR life in their OWN hands, role the dice, take a chance, and go with it? Fear right? Well, duh! Everyone is scared that they will role the dice poorly, or make the wrong move. But it’s all about learning from that experience, and moving on further. Did God not say something along the lines of help yourself before you expect help from him? I know…shitty translation. The point…I am all up for God or that higher Power, being that comfort, that “go-to-guy” or whatever you want to call him. But…to just sit back and say “meh, I’ll let the big guy upstairs determine that,” just…irks me I guess.

Anyway…balance. Call this anything you want…the light and dark, right and wrong, left and right…Taylor and Tyler…Whatever…the point of it is to take everything in your life and make it work out for the best…for YOU. Not worrying about how your mom is going to feel if you go to a friend’s house before they move away. Or how neighbor Suzzy is going to feel if you miss one Book Reading Club Night to see your favorite T.V. show. Sometimes pushing your “needs” away for a “want” is not a sin…or something that people should look poorly upon…but yet learn that doing something just because you can, or want to helps YOU feel better, or relaxed…or just plain out make you smile.

I don’t know, I think as life becomes more progressed, and you move from the childish life you once lived and into the more adult version…you realize that there is no going back to change what once was. Or…fix something that you broken over something silly like money. That life is indeed something you must take by the horns…or you find yourself in the fetal position in the corner.

As I come to this foggy road of new dreams, new “wants”…new “needs,” new obstacles…I find that one thing will always remain the same; the fear of not knowing what’s ahead. A twig or rock that trips me or that knight standing above with his hand out to me. And I think my biggest dilemma is…do I continue looking forward without wondering why the path behind me came to a stop as it did so quickly, and painfully…or do I look back every now and then to see what I did have? Would looking back only hurt me…make me realize how much of a failure I was to not only my family and friends, but to myself? Perhaps make me realize how much I took for granted; my mother no longer being there to put me back on my feet, my friends not there to make me smile. Nothing.

And I can’t even see what lies ahead. It’s nothing but a foggy mess.

I already took the chance…rolled the dice, and now it’s time to take that first step onto this new path. Out with the old and in with the new. I’m no longer that little girl people picked on; I’m a woman with a heart torn and dreams broken. It’s now in my hands to fix them. Make them right…or at least better. And tho I “want” to have someone by my side, I know it’s not something I “need,” but yet, I know it’ll help.

Do I still draw that thin line?
Or do I just continue with what makes me…happy?

Life

Life.
Choices.
Decisions.
Paths.
Fate.

They say life is nothing more then a learning process.
To learn different experiences.
To learn different types of knowledge.
To learn the meaning of life paths.
To learn the true reasoning being choices and their outcome.

But one thing they fail to mention…
Life is probably the hardest things to overcome.
The hardest thing to get thru.
The hardest of all to understand.
To live is to have life, and life is hard.

You make wrong choices.
You take the wrong path.
You learn everything the hard way.
You learn from your mistakes.
But you feel no accomplishment.

Just defeat.
Self Betrayal.
Pain.
Injustice.
Unhappy.

Will you ever find the final path?
The one that gives you all answers?
The one that leads you to happiness?
The one that shows absolution?
The one that wont break away?

Life.
Lessons.
Living.
Hardship.
Ends.

The Annoyingly Long Survey

The Annoyingly Long Survey Created by athenasyphier and taken 27 times on Bzoink
Personal Information
FULL Name::	Rebecca Noel Kinser
Birthdate::	March 25th 1990
First and Last Digit of your S.S.::	2**-**-***9
Gender::	Female
Hometown::	Fairlee
Zipcode::	19901
Appearance
Is your hair dyed?:	Yes
If so, what colour?:	Black and blonde
Natural hair colour::	Light Brown
Hair Length::	2 feet...?
Hair Type (straight, curly, etc.)::	Curly
Is your hair greasy?:	No
Is your hair dry?:	No
Do you have split ends?:	Perhaps...
Do you use hair care products?:	Yes
Like...moose?:	Yes
Perhaps, gel?:	No
Maybe even hair spray....?:	A little
What is your eye colour?:	Hazel
Do you wear glasses?:	Yes
Or do you wear contacts?:	No
Or are you one of the lucky people that have 20/20?:	Ha...No
Is your eyesight better then 20/20?:	.....uhh....No
If you wear contacts, do they change your eye colour?:	Dont wear them
If so, what colour?:	....dont wear them....
Do you have long eye lashes?:	If I put on mascara
Are they naturally curly eyelashes?:	Sorta..ish
Do you have bushy eyebrows?:	No
Do you pluck your eyebrows?:	Sometimes
Or do you wax them?:	No
Are they "perfect"?:	Sorta
Are they Dark?:	Yes
Do you have facial hair?:	No
Is it thick?:	No
Is it dark?:	No
Is it peach fuzz?:	Yes
Do you have side-burns?:	No
Do you have a beard?:	No
Tell me about your nose...is it big?:	No
Small?:	Yes
Pointy?:	No
Hook-ie? -_-:	...haha...no
Do you have big nostrals?:	No
Is your nose wide?:	No
Do you have small ears?:	Yes
Big ears?:	No
Pointy ears?:	No
Attached ear lobes?:	No
Non-attached ear lobes?:	Yes
Do your ears fan out from your head?:	No
Are they flush to your head?:	Sorta...?
Do you have both ears?:	Yes...lol
Do you have an adams apple? =O:	Umm...not like a guy...lol
Can you see your collar bones?:	Sorta...sometimes...maybe. Yes?
Do you have boobs?:	O_O Yes
Man-boobs.....or...moobs? XD:	No
Are you skinny?:	No
Over-weight?:	Yes
Are you willing to say how much you weigh?:	290lbs =O
Are you tall?:	No
Short?:	Yes
What's your height?:	5'5"
Small Hands?:	For a fat person....xD....yes
Large Hands?:	No
Long fingers?:	Yes
Chubby fingers?:	No
Skinny fingers?:	Yes
Short fingers?:	No
Long finger-nails?:	Eh....Im growing them
Short finger-nails?:	No
Fake finger-nails?:	No...lol
Are you pale?:	Kinda...ish....but no
Are you tan?:	Lightly
Fake tan?:	No
Sun tan?:	Yes
SKIN CANCER!?!?!?!:	NO!!!!
Do you have a bubble butt?:	No
Cute little butt?:	....No?
Is your butt wide?:	Maybe...
Do you have thunder thighs?:	Yes...lol
Do you have long legs?:	...maybe?
Short legs?:	....perhaps?
Cubby legs?:	Kinda..ish?
Are you toned?:	No
Body Builder?:	HAHAHAHAH No
Do you have small feet?:	For a woman my size...yes
Large feet?:	no
What's your shoe size?:	9
Hairy feet?:	EWW No
?!?ATHLETES FOOT?!?:	NO!!
Dirty feet?:	No
Clean feet?:	Yes
Family
What is your mother's name?:	Drema
Father's name?:	Tommy
Are they divorced?:	In the Process
Still together?:	No
Do you still talk to them?:	Yes
Are they on this Earth?:	Yes
Do you have any step parents?:	No
If so, which?:	....None
Have your parents cheated?:	In the technical sense...yes
How do you know?:	Once when I was just born cause Mom told me...and when I was 17
Are you sure it is the truth?:	Yes
Do you think your parents have ever lied to you?:	Yes
If you answered no to the above question...are you niave?:	...*thinks*....no?
Again...if you answered no to the previous question...you're dumb!:	=O TRICK!!!
Do you get along with your parents?:	Sorta
Do you think they raised you well?:	Yes
Do you know...personally...both your biological parents?:	Yes
Are you adopted?:	No
Do you have any siblings?:	Yes
Any step siblings?:	No
How many siblings do you have all together?:	2
How many of said siblings are biological?:	2
How many are half siblings?:	0
How many are step siblings?:	0
How many are adopted siblings?:	0
How many boys altogether?:	2
How many girls altogether?:	0
How many are older then you?:	2
How many are younger then you?:	0
Do you have a twin?:	No
If so, were they born first?:	....yeap...lol
Do you personally know all your siblings?:	Yes
Is it possible you have a sibling out there you dont know exist?:	No
What are your siblings names?:	Stephen and Samuel
Are your grandparents on your mom's side still on Earth?:	Yes
How about on your dad's side?:	No
Do you get along with them?:	Yes
Do you have any cousins?:	Yes
How many females on your mom side?:	1
How many males on your mom side?:	1
How many females on your dad side?:	6.....? maybe 5...not sure
How many males on your dad side?:	2?.....I think thats right...xD
How many altogether are older then you?:	5 or 6...
How many altogether are younger?:	2 or 3
Can you name them all?:	Sorta...
Do you have any second cousins?:	Yes
Do you get along with your Aunts and Uncles?:	Yes
How many Uncles on your dad side?:	5
Aunts on your dad side?:	1
Uncles on your mom side?:	1
Aunts on your mom side?:	1
Do you have people you consider family, tho they are in no relation to you?:	Yes
If so, who are they?:	Jason R., James, Jason L., Krystal R., Jessica R.
If so, what are they to you?:	Brother, Brother, Brother, Mom, Sister
Relationship Status
Are you single?:	No
Are you taken?:	Obviously...
Do you have a boyfriend?:	Of course
Perhaps a girlfriend?:	In your dreams
Maybe both?:	Every guys dream....lol
Married?:	No
Have you ever cheated? {SHAME ON YOU!!! -.-}:	NO!!!!
Have you ever been cheated on?:	Sadly...=(
If so, I'm sorry.:	Me too
Have you ever have intimate relations with more then one person?:	Yes...
How about the above question...but at the same time?:	E-Gasps!! NO!!
Are you sexually active? =O:	HOW RUDE!!! Yes...
What is the first quality you look for in a partner?:	Personality
What is the physical feature on a partner you like best?:	Eyes and Smile
Are you a fan of PDA?:	Eh..not really
Have you ever been on a date?:	Yes...wow...after 5 years I can actually say that now
Do you like to go on dates?:	Yes
What is your ideal date?:	Amusement Park...Or Zoo, or Aquriam
Would you be the one paying or the other person?:	Umm....him?
Or, would it be split?:	Sometimes..if I had the money xD
Do you like to show off your partner?:	YES!!
Do you like fun or syphisticated dates?:	Fun
Do you jump into relationships?:	Sorta
Do you use the "L" word freely?:	Freely....after I know I love the person
Do you use it openly?:	Yes
Do you spoil your partner?:	Yes
How do you end a first date?:	With a kiss!!
Are you clingy?:	Kinda
Do you like it if your partner is clingy?:	I guess...makes me feel needed
What is your ideal way of being shown someone cares?:	Something from the heart and spontenous
Where was your first kiss?:	In the high school hall way
Who was your first kiss?:	Joey
Why did you kiss them?:	Cause it was a joke...turned serious =O
Favorites
Colour::	Green
Flower::	White Rose
Shape::	Octagon
Food::	Lazagna
Meal::	Steak, with steamed veggies with cheese and a baked potato
Snack/Dessert::	Cheese Cake
Animal::	Wolf
Book::	Sherrilyn Kenyon Acheron
Disney Character::	Flounder
Comic Book Character::	D.C. Comic Gambit
Video Game::	Assassin's Creed
Website::	Myspace guyz!!! No Umm...facebook. -_-
Past-time::	Reading
Sport::	To play=Baseball To Watch=Football
Shirt::	A comfy one
Pair of Pants::	Jeans
Scent::	The After the Rain Smell
Piece of Jewelry::	Pearl
Emotion::	Excitement
Gaming system::	XBox 360
Type of computer::	Dell
Piece of furniture in your house::	Myz Bed
Family Member::	Mom
Friend::	Krystal
Cartoon::	SpongeBob and Family Guy
TV Show::	CSI: Miami
Movie::	The Fifth Element
Movie Genre::	Horror
Sleep Position::	On the Bed...I like facing away from the bed
Time of day::	Dusk
Season::	Spring
Drink::	Tea
Vegetable::	Broccoli
Fruit::	Kiwi and Strawberries and Bananas
Meat::	Steak
Instrument::	Flute
Song::	It changes....xD
Band::	Saliva
Quote::	You have two choices...Move forward with purpose, or step back in defeat....Your Choice.....
Store::	WalMart
Clothing Store::	Sears
Chip Flavor::	The good kind
Cookie flavor::	White Chocolate Macodamia(?) Nut cookie
Ice Cream Flavor::	Vanilla
Spice::	Garlic
Candy::	Peanut M&Ms
Place To Be::	Where I feel loved and Happy ^_^
Cellphone Company::	AT&T
TV Channel::	Cartoon Network, USA, Health Channel, TBS and Fox
Cigarette Brand::	Marlboro
Alcoholic Beverage::	Vodka
Illegal Substance (Tisk Tisk -_-)::	O_O NONE!!!
Super Hero::	Flash!!
Disney Movie::	The Little Mermaid
Pattern::	Solid
Holiday::	Halloween and Thanksgiving
This Or That
Snake or Lizard::	Snake
Life Forever or Die Young::	Life Forever
Fall or Spring::	Spring
Summer or Winter::	Winter
Motorcycle or Car::	Motorcycle
Car or Truck::	Car
Live in one place forever or Travel the world::	Travel the World
Shot in the chest or in the head::	The head
Drums or Guitar::	Guitar
Mom or Dad::	Mom
Brother or Sister::	Brother
Floor or Ceiling::	Floor
Open or Closed::	Open
In or Out::	Out
Close or Far Away::	Close
Chair or couch::	Couch
Walk or run::	Walk
Read or Write::	Read
Sing or Dance::	Sing
Watch or Participate::	Participate
Give or Get::	Give
Hide or Seek::	Seek
Die Alone or With All Your loved ones around you::	With All my Loved ones...make'em suffer...mwuahahah..just kiddin.
Cartoons or Anime::	Cartoons
Tv or Movies::	Movies
Novels or Short Stories::	Novels
Magic or Tricks::	Magic
Halloween or Christmas::	Halloween
Christmas or Valentines Day::	Christmas
Cold or Hot::	Cold
Big or Small::	Big
Tall or Short::	Tall
Poor with lots of friends or rich and alone::	Poor With Lots of friends so they can share their richness....lol
Fan or AC::	AC
Dark or Light::	Dark
Crabs or Shrimp::	Crabs
Japan or China::	Japan
Mexican food or Chinese food::	Chinese food
Vegetables or Meat::	Meat
Fruits or Vegetables::	Fruits
Manga or Comics::	Manga
Curtains or Blinds::	Blinds
Spider or Snake::	Snake
Waffle or Pancake::	Waffle
Ice Cream or Cake::	Cake
Vanilla or Chocolate::	Vanilla
Pie or Ice Cream Cake::	Ice Cream Cake
Banana or Strawberry::	Banana
Cake or Cupcake::	Cake
White or Black::	Black
Black and White or Rainbow::	Rainbow
Crayons or Coloured Pencils::	Crayons
Markers or Crayons::	Markers
Sports or Makeup::	Make-up
School or Work::	Work
Chicken or Beef::	Beef
Die in a Fire or Die drowning::	Die in a Fire
Water or Soda::	Water
Soda or Juice::	Juice
Beer or Wine::	Beer
Chips or Pretzels::	Pretzels
Book or Movie::	Book
VHS or DVD::	Blue ray =O
Money or Love::	The love of money! lol Love
Pictures or Stories::	Stories
Pillow or Blanket::	Pillow
Friends or Family::	Friends are my family
Question or Answer::	Answer
Pokemon or Yu-Gi-Oh::	Pokemon....*shoots myself in the head*
Star Trek or Star Wars::	Star Wars
Horror or Romance::	Horror
Tragedy or Comedy::	Funny Death....lol Comedy
Grand Theft Auto or Assassins Creed::	Assassins Creed
Clean or Dirty::	Clean
Shower or Bath::	Shower
Candles or flowers::	Flowers
Real or fake::	Real
Gangster or Prep::	Gangster
Emo or Goth::	Goth
Goth or Prep::	Goth
Glasses or Contacts::	Contacts
X-Box or Playstation::	X-Box
Bottle or Can::	Bottle
Drunk or Sober::	In the middle...lol Sober
Illegal or Legal::	Legal
Glass or Plastic::	Glass
Tank top or T-shirt::	Tank
Emotions or Numbness::	Emotions
Black head or pimple::	Black Head Ew
Keyboard or Mouse::	Keyboard
Random Questions:
Do you smoke?:	On and Off
Do you drink?:	=O Yes
Do you use illegal substances?:	No
Do you flare your nostrals?:	Yes
Can you wiggle your nose like a bunny?:	No
Can you wiggle your ears?:	Yes
Have you ever been in an abulance?:	Yes
Can you suck in your nostrals?:	...O_O No
Do you have any piercings?:	Yes
Where?:	My Ears
Do you have any tattoos?:	Yes
Where?:	Left Arm
Of what?:	A cross
Do you have back acne AKA backne?:	Sometimes
Do you wear makeup?:	Yes
Do you wear nail polish?:	Yes
Are you kinky?:	Durrh
Do you have an eating disorder?:	No
Have you ever suffered from one?:	Yes
Any mental disorders?:	Yes
What?:	Manic Bi-Polar Disorder
Any physical disorders?:	Yes
What?:	Arthritis
Do you use sarcasm?:	Of course not
Are you nosy?:	Very...why are you asking these questions? What are you gonna gain?
Do you have any pets?:	Yes
What kinds?:	A cat
What are their names?:	Bella
Have you ever had pets?:	Yes
What were they?:	Cats, Dogs, Fish, Bunnies, Turtles, Birds
What were their names?:	Too many to name...
Who is your loudest friend?:	Branden
Who is your quietest friend?:	Krystal
Do you have a job?:	Unfortunetly...no
Can you do basic math?:	Durh
Do you believe in santa?:	=O Youre tellin me he's not real?!
Do you believe in God?:	Yes
Do you believe in anything?:	Yes
What is your religion?:	Complicated
What is your sexual orientation?:	Straight
What is your biggest fear?:	Living Alone Forever
Do you have any other fears?:	Yes
Are you scared of anyone?:	Yes....your mom
What are you wearing?:	Clothes...perv
What are you listening to?:	This fucking chirping Cricket...and someone farting...
Who else is in the room?:	.....that person...lol
What is the closest thing to you that you can pick up?:	The keyboard
Can you lick your own nose?:	Yes
Can you touch your hands behind your back?:	Yes
Do you know how to dance?:	Nope
Do you pick your nose?:	When there is something there to pick...geez
Are you allergic to anything?:	No
Do you sleep in?:	Sometimes
Do you hit the snooze button more than twice?:	No
Do you like shopping?:	I guess
What is the first word that pops in your head after you read, "UTI"?:	Ouch
What is a bad habit that you have?:	..not sure...
Do you pick your wedgies in public?:	Secretly
Do you fart in public?:	NO!!!!
Do you fart around people at all?:	NO
Do you have a spoon stuck in your throat?:	Yes...yes I do
Are you seeking the legend?:	OMG!! WHO TOLD YOU ABOUT THE LEGEND!!!!
Would you wear a fake mustache to get a free sample?:	YeS!
Have you ever lied?:	When I was little
Have you ever used another name?:	No
What do you think about Zebras?:	Strippy
Are you bored yet?:	Very
How about annoyed?:	A little
Do you play board games?:	Yes
Do you play truth or dare?:	Yes
What do you normally choose?:	Dare
Do you get a lot of mail?:	Not really
Any bills?:	Not yet
Do you bite your nails?:	Use too
Do you lick your lips a lot?:	Not sure
Are you happy?:	Yes
Depressed?:	No
Do you get sick a lot?:	Yes
What is the one thing that can always make you happy?:	Feeling Loved (aka Branden)
What is a pet peeve you have?:	Too Many
Do you watch TV?:	Yes
Do you sing in the shower?:	Sometimes
Do you shave?:	Yes
Do you use emoticons?:	Alot...=D
Do you have a MySpace?:	Yes
How about a facebook?:	Yes
Do you date people you meet online?:	I have
Have you ever been to a club?:	Yes
Do you date older people or younger?:	Older
Are you an energy saver?:	YES!!!!
How about a money saver?:	Not really
Have you ever played on a Wii?:	Yes
Do you wear pants?:	Yes
Do you always wear underwear in public?:	Yes
What does your body tell about you?:	Im Lazy
Do you like yourself?:	No...I love myself
Do other people like you?:	I would hope
Are you a good rolemodel?:	I guess............
Are you in love?:	Yes
Do you have talent?:	Yes
Anything special about you?:	Yes
Do you believe in love at first sight?:	Or should you walk by again..I know I know...corny pick up line
Do you like to eat bananas?:	Love to eat them
Do you use straws?:	No
Will you eat canned foods?:	Unlike Branden....Yes
Do you eat left overs?:	See above
Do you tan or burn?:	Tan
Are you petite?:	HAHAHAHAHAHAHA No
Do you live with anyone?:	Yes
Do you chew on pen caps?:	Yes
Do you hunt?:	I have yet to go
Are you a good cook?:	I would like to think so
Can you write?:	Yes
If you had a baby boy what would you name him?:	Octavian Dewight
If you had a baby girl what would you name her?:	Naomii Carol
Do you think you can sing?:	Yes
Do you think you should model?:	No
Can you draw?:	Depends on my mood
Do you like spongebob?:	YES!!!! ^_^ Im in love with him
What type of music do you listen to?:	All types
Have you ever met anyone famous?:	Sorta....
Have you ever been to a concert?:	No
Have you ever been IN a concert?:	No
Do you drink beer?:	Sometiems
Have you ever stepped in dog poo?:	.......*raises an eyebrow* Yes
Do you use public bathrooms?:	Yes
Do you get bored easily?:	Not really...
Do you have a cell phone?:	Yes
Do you drive somewhere EVERY day?:	No
Does "schwarze sonne" mean anything to you?:	Yes
Do you watch the news?:	Sometimes
Do you have any friends?:	No..Im a lonely cat lady...(lol yes I do)
Do you collect anything?:	Yes
What?:	Penguins, Wolves, Rubber Duckies, Books, Bottles, Trinkets
Which came first the chicken or the egg?:	Chicken
Have you ever been on a horse?:	Yes
Do you like the President?:	....racist bastard you are...yes
Are you patriotic?:	Yes
Are you even American?:	HOW RUDE!! Yes
Do you watch anime?:	Yes
Do you know what is?:	Yes
Do you read manga?:	Yes
Do you know what THAT is?:	YES!
Are you a homophobe?:	No
Did you get good grades in school?:	Yes
Have you ever flown a kite?:	Yes
Do you like to play Guitar Hero?:	Yes
What about Rock Band?:	Yes
Do you crack you neck?:	Yes
What about you knuckles?:	O_O Yes
Do you watch Family Guy?:	*takes a deep breath* Yes
Do you listen to random Christian Opera whilst your friend is typing?:	...........O_O Damn...you caught me
If you could move where would you go?:	Alaska...Australia, Germany, Greece (you pick)
Are you bylingual? (Speak many languages):	No
Have you ever plagerized?:	No
Do you watch the HSN?:	No
Are you dumb?:	No
Do you make a wish at 11:11?:	Yes
What movie do you want to see that is in or is coming to theaters?:	G.I. Joe, District 9, The Perfect Getaway, The Collector
Have you ever stayed at a Days Inn?:	No
Do you have a drivers license?:	No
Are you a US citizen?:	Yes
Is there any piece of jewelry that you wear EVERY day?:	Yes
Do you watch sports?:	Yes
Do you wear deodorant?:	Yes....durh
Have you ever watched Pokemon?:	.......yes *shoots self again*
What about Yu-Gi-Oh?:	NO!!!!
What about the Teletubbies?:	....I will die before answering that....fucking Po
Ever seen a boobah?:	...Yes
Do you want an iPhone?:	Yes
Do you have an MP3 Player?:	Yes
Do you have central air?:	Yes
Do you want bagpipes playing at your funeral?:	Yes
Do you get presents on your birthday?:	Sometimes
Do you drive?:	Illegally
Do you expect more?:	....with what?
How do you sleep?:	Like a Baby
Do you dream often?:	Mostly every night
When you are bored and it is silent do you hear music in your head?:	Yes lol
Have you ever been robbed?:	E-Gasps! No
Have you ever painted a room?:	Yes
Did you enjoy this survey? :	......................Sure
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